Writing and Children

…don’t go together at all. Reading and children, yes. Like butter and toast, in fact. But trying to write with children around is like repeatedly trying to start a car without a battery. I know this now because I tried to work on my novel this summer with both kiddos at home.

Silly me.

Erroneously, I figured that while my little darlings were doing what darlings do while out of school (the stuff that didn’t include trips to the museum or playing board games together) I could get some writing done. I’m working on a paranormal fantasy and plan to have it done by October. But, I reasoned, if I could get some writing done this summer, I might move that date to up to September.
It sounded like a perfectly reasonable idea.

Our first day of summer vacation, we had a lovely morning taking the dogs for a long hike. We followed that up by spending most of the day at the museum together and by the end of the day, were all pretty tired. When we got home, my darlings decided to spend an hour on their computers before making homemade pizza for dinner.
Perfect. That would mean I could write for a whole hour.
Or so I thought.

Cronan drove in silence, glancing over at her. He ran his hands over the steering wheel restlessly. Unbidden, something inside him slowly began to stir to life.

“Look mommy, I made an outfit!” My oldest was playing a dress-up game on her computer.
“That’s beautiful, honey. I like the colour of the dress you chose.” I smiled at her enthusiasm. Okay, back to writing.

Parking the car in front of her house, he followed Lucinda to the front door like a shadow.

“I put make-up on mine! Do you like it?” My younger daughter is playing the same game and, not to be outdone, has dressed her model up in hot pink with matching eye shadow.
“Wow, sweetie. That’s really sparkly. I like it!” Okay…what was I writing again? Oh, yeah. My antagonist lead character was about to disclose the beginnings of his dark secret to the reader.

Wordlessly, Cronan placed his firm hands over hers and pulled the key out. She left him at the open doorway, dropping her coat on the floor and leaving behind a trail of water into the kitchen.

“Do you like her shoes? I matched them with her dress.”
I look up, slightly bleary-eyed. Straddling two worlds is sometimes a difficult task as a writer. “I love them. They’re really fancy. She looks like she’s going to a party.”
My antagonist is restlessly moving across the computer page as I attempt to get him back on track. Okay. Now.

Cronan crossed over and shut the door behind him, turning the lock with a quiet click. His icy eyes flashed as Darwin skated in the room. The dog growled menacingly and backed up towards the hallway. “Shall I let him out?” he grated evenly.

“Zeus wants out, mommy.”
“Okay.’ Distracted, I continue to type. “Can you let him out, honey?”
“I got up last time.” I glance over at my oldest and see that she is completely absorbed in her game. Big sigh. “Okay, Zeus. Last time, buddy.” I let our dog out and walk back over to my chair, grabbing my laptop. My antagonist starts to drift off the computer page again. I hustle him back on-task.

She turned around and almost fell into Cronan, who was directly behind her. Startled, she involuntarily drew in her breath.
“My apologies,” he intoned.
“I need to sit down.”
“You need a drink.”
“I don’t drink.”

“Oh, mommy, look at this!! You can give them a background!”
“What?”
“A background! You can make a house for them!” My younger daughter’s eyes shone as if she’d discovered a diamond under her pillow.
“Great, honey. That’s fabulous. I like that pink you chose for her room too.”
I look back down at my computer screen to discover that my antagonist has wandered off and is sitting beside my younger darling now, marveling at what a great room her diva has. I shake my head to clear it. “Is there anything else you want to show me? Mommy’s kind of trying to write while you guys are playing.”
“Sorry."
“It’s okay. I was just wondering if you wanted to show me anything else.”

Both my girls look up at me with blank faces.

“Just asking.” Taught smile on my face, I motion for my antagonist to get back into my computer and back to being sinister. I begin typing again.

“You need one tonight.” Cronan smiled widely. He picked up the wine bottle from where it had been shoved in the corner on her counter top. “Do you have a bottle opener?”
Lucinda shook her head as she dropped into the chair, shivering in her wet clothes.

“I’m hungry.” My oldest chimes in.
My computer screen seems to brighten for a second, but I figure it's probably just my imagination. “Okay. What do you want?”
“Peanut butter and jelly sandwich.”
“Do you want one too?” I wisely ask my younger daughter. She continues to type on her computer, oblivious. Because obviously, her game is fascinating and taking up 100% of her attention. “Sweetie?”
She looks up at me.
“Do you want a peanut butter and jelly sandwich?”
“Um, okay.”

I walk into the kitchen and begin my task. My antagonist, amused, follows me and waits patiently to be told what his next foreboding and sinister move will be.

“Here you go.” I set their sandwiches down and sit again, computer in my lap, and begin to type.

“I’m cold,” Lucinda whispered to herself. Her white t-shirt clung to her skin.
“You need to change into some dry clothes.” He pulled the cork out, eying her as he inhaled the cork’s aroma.


“I need the crusts cut off.”
“What?”
“I always have the crusts cut off, mommy.” My younger daughter looks at me like I’ve committed a cardinal sin.
“Of course, what was I thinking?” My antagonist rolls his eyes at me like I should have known all along. He goes and sits beside my younger daughter and smiles proudly at the fashion diva she’s created.
“Here you go!” I am cheerful. I am super-mom. I am getting a little pissed at all the interruptions.

My antagonist laughs at me as he slides back into my story.

“Anything else?” I ask my darlings patiently.

They both don’t hear me, of course, because the game they’re playing is so freaking fascinating.

“Okay. Back to writing.” I wait to see if they answer me. They do not.

Lucinda ignored him and wrapped her arms around herself, shivering.
Opening a cabinet door, he helped himself to two glasses in the cupboard.
Lucinda vaguely wondered how he knew where her glasses were kept, but she was too cold to ask. She watched as poured the dark, red liquid into the glasses and ran his finger along the rim to catch a stray drop. He slowly licked the drop of wine from his finger.

“Oh my gosh, that’s sooooo funny!” Both my daughters explode into a fit of the giggles. I look up to see that my older daughter is peeking over her sister’s shoulder.
“What’s funny?”
“Look mommy!”
I dutifully get up and have a look. Her diva is dancing around with a cat. A bright pink, feather boa is slung over her shoulders. My antagonist peers over my shoulders and begins to laugh as well. I resist the urge to smack him upside of his darkly handsome, yet foreboding face.

“How clever, yes, ha-ha. That’s pretty…silly. Did you make the cat too?”
Silence.
Smile still plastered on my face, I once again, get back…to…my writing.

“Thank you,” Lucinda said quietly as she accepted the glass. Still shaking, she watched as her wine trembled in the glass. “A patient died today. We had to put him to sleep.”
“Things die, Lucinda. You know that.”
Lucinda looked up at him in disbelief. He was standing too close to her, as usual. He kneeled in front of her, placing his hands on her knees. She involuntarily sat back, wondering why he had no sense of personal space.

“Woof!”
“Mommy, Zeus wants back in.”
I get up…again…and stomp over to the door. Wordlessly, I stomp back over to my computer and sit. Several seconds tick by before I furiously begin to type once again.

“I could have saved him.”
Cronan raised his eyebrows.
“I could have.” Lucinda stared into her glass. “It’s not my job to decide whether something lives or dies.”
“Everything gets its time on this earth, Lucinda. The trick is, knowing when it is time to stay, and when it is time to move on.”
“Is that the trick?” She started to raise her glass to her lips, and lowered it again.
Cronan smiled, “Drink, Lucinda. You will feel better.”

“I’m thirsty.”
My fingers stop. “Why don’t you get yourself some water?” I grate.
“I don’t want water. I want a glass of milk.”

My antagonist looks at me and shrugs his shoulders.

Knowing that the milk carton is far too heavy for my youngest to pour herself, I reluctantly get up. “Okay. Do you want some too?” I ask my older daughter.
My words fall on deaf ears.

“Do you want a glass of milk?” which comes out a little too loud.
My older daughter looks up at me with a frown.
“Milk. Do you want a glass of milk? I’m getting some.”
“Yeah, okay.” And she blissfully goes back to her game.

I slosh milk into two large glasses, more milk than I know they can drink, and set the glasses onto the coffee table. Task done, I point firmly to my computer. My antagonist pulls himself reluctantly away from Diva Land and slinks back into my computer pages. I type.

“My hunch is that you do not drink enough.” He reached up and pushed some of her wet hair back from her face. He ran his thumb lightly over the two small, white scars that stood out against the pallor of her skin.
Lucinda raised the glass and drained it, pulling away from him.
“You will end up on your back at that rate.”
“Maybe that’s where I want to be right now.” Lucinda stood and walked over to the open wine bottle, pouring herself another glass.

“Can I have a pillow?”
“Excuse me?”
“Nevermind. I’ll get it.” My older daughter hops up to grab a pillow and settles happily back down onto the couch.

Writing…now.

“So,” Lucinda turned and faced him, “why are you here, Cronan?”
“In your house?”
“No, in this town. You seem quite…worldly. Why did you move here? It’s a small town and not much in it.” She took a sip of wine and let it flood her mouth before swallowing. “My friend, Lucas, just moved into town to get away from the city…I guess. Why did you move here? What are you running from?”
A flicker of something indiscernible passed over his face. “Not from, Lucinda, to.”
The heady smell of wine overwhelmed her senses. “I don’t know what that means, Cronan. You’re being vague on purpose.”
“Why are you here, Lucinda?” Cronan took a step towards her.

“This game is boring. What’s the name of that wolf site that I was on the other day?”
I close my eyes briefly. “The one that had a museum link?”
“Yeah, that one.”
I search my chattering brain for the name and can’t come up with it. “I don’t remember.”
My daughter sighs, exasperated. “It had a picture of a grey wolf on the page.”
“Yes, honey, I know. I don’t remember.” My fingers are frozen mid-type and mirror my characters who are frozen in their repartee. After several moments, I continue.

Lucinda took another generous sip from her glass. The dark red liquid slid down her throat, warming her insides to a dull roar. “I’m here…I’m here because my fiancé died.” The confession was out of her mouth before she had a chance to stop herself.
Cronan paused. “Again, everything gets its time on earth.”
Lucinda’s eyes welled up with tears. She caught her breath and turned her back on him. Setting her half empty glass down, she steadied herself against her counter.
Cronan was behind her in a flicker.
“I am sorry. I can be quite…heartless at times,” he murmured evenly.

“WolfQuest!!”
I practically jump out of my skin. “Great, honey. Why don’t you go there now?”
“Cool! I love WolfQuest.”

Typing.

“No, you’re right. Everything has it’s time.” A tear slid down her face. She could feel Cronan’s breath on her hair. His presence was hard to ignore, it pressed behind her insistently. Through her haze, she felt her heart leap frantically. His hands slid lightly over her hips and she felt him inhale deeply. Panicking, she grabbed her glass and slipped past him, backing up towards the center of the kitchen.

“I thought you wanted to play dress-up?”
My eyes snap up to my younger daughter. Sensing her sister has gone onto something bigger and better, she is peering over her shoulder.
“Stop looking over my shoulder!”
“What site are you on?”
“None of your business! Play your own game!”
“Mommy, she won’t let me see what site she’s on!”
“Please tell her what site you’re on and stop arguing.” Both my characters are looking at me, eyebrows raised. I know, I know.
My older daughter sighs dramatically. “WolfQuest! Okay?”

I wait. I type once again.

“You didn’t answer my question.” Lucinda’s thoughts darted around like trapped rabbits. “Why are you here, Cronan?”
His eyes burned a clear grey, stripping her of her armor.
Lucinda swayed slightly, the room beginning to tilt. “I think it would be best if you left now.”
“Is that what would be best?”
“Yes, please leave.”
He considered her request and set his glass down, thumb running along its rim. “I will…for now.”

“How do you spell quest?”
I can hear both characters yell the letters out in my brain. I quietly spell it for her, however. Too quietly--because I am trying to not…lose…my temper.
“Thanks, mommy.”

I immediately feel like a heel. “You’re welcome, sweetie.”

Lucinda finished the rest of her drink in one gulp. The room began to spin. “You never told me your last name, by the way.”
A small, triumphant smile touched the corners of his mouth.
Lucinda watched his lips as he began to form a word. In the distance, she heard a glass break, shattering his reply.


“Look mommy, you can pick what wolf you want to be! Which one should I be?”

And it is at that moment, my friends, that I give up on my writing. “How about I help you choose? I’ve always liked grey wolves.”

I save and close out of my novel and for the next twenty minutes, my younger daughter and I play with our wolf in WolfQuest. My antagonist cheers us on; a big smile on his face and a bright pink, feather boa slung over his broad shoulders.